Gooey on the inside, hard candy shell on the outside, that is how I would describe myself. The hard shell was a façade that came from years of dealing with emotions and half-truths about life. I have a natural ability to project outcomes therefore making quick decisions and strategic planning was never an issue. With my upbringing, taking orders and follow commands from the acceptable person in charge was second nature. Acceptance was key for me. So, how did I see life? As a mean and cruel place that preyed on the weak and only the strong survived. That God was a hard task-master that put unobtainable demands on people he supposedly loved. He promised his loved ones a magical existence, but made you wait for your anticipated outcome, which may never come. Christian or not we have choices either to change our perspective of the choices that keep us chained to a life of despaired with regret, anger, resentment, and disappointment. Scripture tells us not to fix our mind on our fleshly desires. God came to save me, my shepherd left the ninety-nine righteous to save the one that was lost, and that was me.