What if the sacred texts weren't just to be studied but lived - raw, sensual, and unfiltered?

In LossLove and A Journey through Fear to Peace: Volume Four, Betty Hibod offers an intensely personal and spiritually immersive memoir that defies genre boundaries. This is not a biography of public accomplishments, nor a philosophical treatise or religious scripture. It is something rarer: a spiritual memoir that reveals the invisible workings of the soul as it navigates grief, divine love, and mystical awakening.

Drawn from Hibod's spiritual journal, this volume explores how metaphors from scripture, mysticism, and tantra come alive in flesh and spirit. Through her practice of tantric spirituality and the lived experience of divine love, she illustrates the full emotional spectrum of spiritual transformation. These reflections do not just reference mysticism and awakening; they embody them.

Grief and healing, sacred sexuality, contemplative solitude, and the search for God beyond dogma unfold in a narrative that is as intellectual as it is intimate. Hibod's writing bridges traditions: Christian mysticism, Buddhist thought, and metaphysical inquiry to portray how spiritual theories manifest in the grit and grace of daily life. How does one experience enlightenment while doing laundry or falling apart from loss? How does divine union feel in the body, the heart, the silence?

For seekers of transformational memoirs, spiritual intimacy, and metaphysical depth, this book is not a guide. It is the map being drawn in real time.

Let this sacred narrative awaken the mystic within you.